There she sat, on the lid of the toilet bowl, with razor in hand. Her hair was tangled, undershirt torn, floral panties, and dirty socks on. She could see her reflection in the mirror. Her eyes were rosy, cheeks striped with tracks from her mascara, her lips soaked with her tears. She felt like garbage. She let out a loud howl, and broke the mirror with her fists. Warm blood ran down her wrist like a river bend. She took the razor and dug into the inside of her thigh. The feeling was almost orgasmic. She cut again, forming an X mark and then an O. Yes, XO, for love. Someone knocked on the bathroom door, causing her to shudder. The door knob turned, and she shot up, blocking the door with her body. "Get away," she growled. "What are you doing in there? I gotta take a dump!" the... [Read More]
Tags: Cutting, Pervert, Depression, Sadness, Family, Lost, UnlovedThis all starts when I was four, My parents had had 3 kids of their own, My dad's daughter (half sister)so that makes four. Well first we adopted, what I now call my sister Shania. Either way, we would be related, because see she was my cousin. Her mom went to jail 3 weeks after she was born, so her mom had to give her other two children to a lady named Maxine. Maxine couldn't take the youngest child, "Shania" So my mom and dad said they would take her, I felt so bad for her, like I do now, because she feels unwanted sometimes. But that's not the only sad thing. A year later, In June 2004, my whole life gets turned upside down. My grandpa visited our house, and so my dad decided to walk him home, all of us kids fell asleep before he could get home.... [Read More]
Tags: Family, Memories, Father, Death, Life, Sad, MissingTo start from the beginning is a understatement. My sad story starts from a young age and continues with me until now. My family always wanted the best for me, so you could say, their rules and restrictions were for my own benefit. I grew up in a religious family and was taught that education was my primary focus in life, So I attended a religious all girls school. I was taught that there were no such things as 'guy' friends, and they only wanted one thing, etc. I was shielded. I had two elder brothers that monitored my every move, even as they attended the all boys school neighboring mine. My short time in the girls school was a breeze, I was focused and determined, but that would all change eventually. Senior school was upon me now, but their was a change, my school would now be integrated as... [Read More]
Tags: True Story, Sad, Love, Family, Memories, Broken Heart, Sadness, TearsI seriously am a lost little kitten. When I was young, my mother and father got a divorce. That didn't stop my father to keep tormenting my lovely hard working mother. He would call in the middle of the night, just to say "hi" and curse at my mother in all ways possible in our language, and in the English language too. Sometimes he came over too. I have bad memory, but one memory I remember clearly is when my mother and father were fighting in the bathroom, and my father broke his cologne bottle near my mother's feet, nearly cutting her feet up. I was in the corner peeking in, and was startled a lot. When my father stomped out of the house, my mother ran after him, pissed off (we live in an apartment, and were afraid of always getting kicked out cause of him.) I was left... [Read More]
Tags: Sadness, Loneliness, Suicidal, Moving On, Father, FamilyI knew this was my moment. All eyes were fixed on me except Audrey’s. Hers were shut tightly, tears trickling down her rosy cheeks. Pa and Ma were somewhere around us, I could sense it because they were crying out for me. If you were to ask me if I regretted this path that I had chosen, I would say no. Perhaps, a little, now that Audrey was so disheartened. * * * * * “Alex, are you in there?” Audrey’s squeaky voice reverberated from behind the bedroom door. I quickly chucked away the dresses, wigs and cosmetics into my one and only wardrobe before opening the door. “They’re asleep?” I asked her. “Yes,” my biological twin replied. I let out a sigh involuntarily and locked the door. Audrey started to take out everything that I had just stuffed into the tiny wardrobe. After changing into a sleeveless dress, she... [Read More]
Tags: Sad Love Story, Death, Homosexual, Trust, Unloved, Family, Sad, Pain, TruthWe can all say we have had one true person in our life. The one that listens,cares, and loves us. Mine was my grandpa, He was always there for me. When I was younger and I felt like no one cared, he always did. He never told me his heart was failing and he was in pain most of the time. Never told me, never showed it, never complained. He was always happy and tried his best to get me everything I wanted and to make me happy. I could tell him anything and everything he never judged me. I always thought he would be there and I never thought he would pass away. The day my parents told me he died I felt like my heart shattered. I burst into tears and couldn't stop crying I put my head in my knees and cried on my parents floor I... [Read More]
Tags: Regret, Care, Love, Chances, Death, Sad, FamilyI had a brother he was in a gang but decided to change. He never went back to the gang so they were looking for him to kill him. He found out about this and our whole family moved including me. After our 3 months of living in the new house we got used to it and all of us made new friends. So I woke up one day and I noticed that I didn't have my 5 dollars on the counter no more and I asked my brother and he said that he had gotten it and bought a soda and chips with that money when he was going going to the club last night . But said he would pay me back as soon as possible . I didn't agree because he went in my room and got it and I told him to not ever go in... [Read More]
Tags: Regret, Hurt, Brother, Family, SadA story on saving relationships.. Learn from this.. “When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Marriage, Wife, Family, Relationship, Sad, DeathIt's 5'O clock. 5.2.13. I'm 16 years old sitting here thinking about my life.I have a bad self esteem issue. You and other might not think it's such a huge deal. But it is. To me it's a big deal. Yeah some adults might say it's a phase you go through but this started when I was little and has been going on and on forever. I found a solution. Might not be the best but it helps. Without my smoking I'm scared to see what would happen I feel like it keeps me sane. So I have less then a month of school left and I feel like its going by so slow. I'm failing all my math class yet I don't care. I know that's bad so why do I do it? About two months ago I moved out of my dad's. Why? Well he seems to love... [Read More]
Tags: Worried, Hurt, Family, Father, Brother, Mother, Unloved, Pain, AloneMy life never was too good or easy or what you have. When I was 4 years old I lived on long island, had friends that actually gave a crap about me. But it wasn't always sunshine, that was when I watched my mother be abused day after day. Then in less than a year me and my mom moved to Pennsylvania I was glad I never had to watch it again but I was so depressed coz I lost all my friends. I guess you can say I moved on but I still miss them. After we moved here I joined school, it was kindergarten and I was starting to make friends. I was happy, but I didn't notice how cruel I was being to kids who were my friends. I would bully them and now I feel horrible but there's nothing I can do you know? In first... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Cutting, Life, Hate, Bullying, Unloved, Family, Alone