I'm lost...

Purple Shadow

29 Jan, 2013 02:16 PM

Happiness wasn't meant for me...I hate my life and I didn't want to hate myself,but I ended up like that,anyway. My mother moved far away because of her job and now I live with my father, who is nuts. Seriously,he needs to go see a psychologist or something!!! He has a very serious problem with his nerves. But I have a serious problem,too...I am bipolar and I have depression. But I can't help it...What would YOU do if your life sucked like mine does? Yes,you heard me:my life sucks. HARD...Every day I hear these cheerful people say that they love everything and that if I want my life to change, I should be grateful for some things... But how can I be grateful when THERE'S NOTHING to be grateful for? My life isn't satisfying at all. I'm ugly as hell, unpopular, a complete idiot and so lazy that I can't... [Read More]

Tags: Life, Comfort, Lost, Sad, Alone, Depression
Votes: 8
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First Love... Devastating Outcome.

Anonymous Thoughts.

31 Jan, 2013 12:15 AM

Picture this.. Two young kids in elementary school, one boy and one girl. Both age of 7, after knowing each other for 6 years. They've made it to middle school in the grade of 8th. They finally seem to tell each other their feelings for each other and it's official that they are a couple. They say, "A relationship is a friendship set on fire." That was Charlie and Sammie. He was most definitely everything to her. They started out so amazing, but there is always someone who tries there very best to ruin the relationship. To give this meaning a twist this person who ruins their relationship was in fact Sammie's very own BEST friend Holly. Scandalous, right?! To resume back to the story, Holly is the conflict. The months went by and the relationship was going great, considering it's their friendship Sammie & Charlie put on the line.... [Read More]

Tags: Depressing, Shocking, Love, First Love, Best Friend, Bestfriend, Anonymous
Votes: 18
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Surviving Love...

Sarah

30 Jan, 2013 04:34 AM

I was running through the dark streets, barely seeing where I was going. The cold air was practically choking me while I breathed. I knew that I might not be on time but I also knew that if I didn’t try and get there, that I would be haunted of the memory forever. The man I loved needed me. I had received a call that he was going into cardiac arrest and this might be the last day his heart beats. At first I thought they were joking—but when they put Damen on the phone I knew that they were right. I barely recognized his voice, as if he had drunk too much Cough Syrup. I was about to ask him if he was okay when suddenly he screamed dropping the phone. No one bothered to pick it up, so I could hear their voices in the background, shouting orders.... [Read More]

Tags: Grief, Pain, Love, Loss, Dreams, Death, Sad, Tears, Lost
Votes: 57
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My Life.

Kay

02 May, 2013 10:15 PM

It's 5'O clock. 5.2.13. I'm 16 years old sitting here thinking about my life.I have a bad self esteem issue. You and other might not think it's such a huge deal. But it is. To me it's a big deal. Yeah some adults might say it's a phase you go through but this started when I was little and has been going on and on forever. I found a solution. Might not be the best but it helps. Without my smoking I'm scared to see what would happen I feel like it keeps me sane. So I have less then a month of school left and I feel like its going by so slow. I'm failing all my math class yet I don't care. I know that's bad so why do I do it? About two months ago I moved out of my dad's. Why? Well he seems to love... [Read More]

Tags: Worried, Hurt, Family, Father, Brother, Mother, Unloved, Pain, Alone
Votes: 2
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The Little Boy, Little Girl, and The Man

Sydney Chalmers

04 May, 2013 12:30 PM

Once, there was a little girl and a little boy. They met in kindergarten. They grew up together. He would push her on the swings. They would sit at lunch together. They would play basket ball together they were what everyone called "perfect" they thought they had it all. Then the boy realized when he saw she had bruises, she was in so much pain. He would always ask where they came from and she could only say "If I tell you my daddy said something very bad will happen to me" so the little boy told her "I will protect you" so she told him "My daddy hits me because I'm not good enough" and the little boy cried while the little girl told him not to shaking his arm. The teacher came over and so he wouldn't get in trouble she told the teacher. The little girl got... [Read More]

Tags: Love, Hurt, Memories, Sad
Votes: 4
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Letter to You

Katherine

29 Jan, 2013 05:12 AM

Dear You, Stay, stay, please do. Don't leave me! Don't leave by your own hand. Please don't! That's the worst way to go, going because of you. I just found you, it hasn't even been a month, and you're leaving. Just... Like... That.... You brought me so many smiles, so many tears, so many moments that will only be remembered in memories. I don't care if you think you're ugly, you think you're weird, society's monster, all that bull. I don't care. To me, you're beautiful, completely amazing, the perfect friend. You were my everything. Were....Don't leave! Please, stay. Stay for just a minute, two minutes, forever. Fate is in your hands, don't do it. Please don't! .... Time was so short, so short, too short. I made the most out of our moments, every second. Every word you said, I held on, like a desperate child clinging to mother's... [Read More]

Tags: Sad, Death, Letter, Tragic, Suicide, Gone, Love, Pain
Votes: 4
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My Life Story

Zak Keller

28 Jan, 2013 05:21 PM

My life never was too good or easy or what you have. When I was 4 years old I lived on long island, had friends that actually gave a crap about me. But it wasn't always sunshine, that was when I watched my mother be abused day after day. Then in less than a year me and my mom moved to Pennsylvania I was glad I never had to watch it again but I was so depressed coz I lost all my friends. I guess you can say I moved on but I still miss them. After we moved here I joined school, it was kindergarten and I was starting to make friends. I was happy, but I didn't notice how cruel I was being to kids who were my friends. I would bully them and now I feel horrible but there's nothing I can do you know? In first... [Read More]

Tags: Depression, Cutting, Life, Hate, Bullying, Unloved, Family, Alone
Votes: 8
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REGRET

Kimmy Villora

28 Jan, 2013 03:29 PM

10th grade.... As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. 11th grade........ The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she... [Read More]

Tags: Regret, Sad, Love, Unspoken Love
Votes: 12
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Somebody That I Used To Know

Faliha Ishma

27 Jan, 2013 10:00 AM

It all began when I was 14th years old. At that moment, I was just a teenager who only wanted to make my parents proud. When I was only about 2 years old, my parents got divorced. I did not understand anything at that moment because I was still a kid. Then, my mom raised me all alone. She became a single parent. She told me that it was really a tough job to raise me all by herself. Luckily, my grandmother helped her a lot. Okay, when I was in 8th grade, I had a crush on a guy. He was my classmate. He was a transferred student. When I first met him, I did not feel anything towards him. I did not talk to him at first, we just shared some smiles. But one day, I just felt like this guy got something on his eyes that captivated... [Read More]

Tags: Betrayal, Unloved, Sad Love, Hurt, Pain, Tears, Heartbroken
Votes: 16
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In loving memory of dad.

Melissa

27 Jan, 2013 01:42 AM

When I was 14 weeks old, my mom left me. My dad took care of me and he's only one in my family that I've been so close to for so many years until I was 7 years old, he died in boat accident then my aunt decided to adopted me.. I was really depressed for 10 years. I was so heartbroken. I wanted to die so badly, I hurt/cut myself almost everyday. I was in big trouble everyday at school. I refuse to work too hard in school and I had bad grades. I wasn't myself at all because I was in deep depression. My family, friends, and staffs at school was very sick worried about me so they decided to sent me to mental hospital for few days. I wasn't happy at all, I don't like my life today. I wanted to go back to my old life.... [Read More]

Tags: Death, Love, Sad, Depression, Successful, Memories, Father, Sadness
Votes: 5
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