It all started five years ago, when i first met him. I was in grade eight and he was in grade seven. It was the first day of school, we both lived close to each other and took the same school bus to get to school and to go back. It wasn't excatly love at first sight, in fact it was more like we where just on same bus or i know that person but we aren't really friends. Soon it all changed. I would see him everyday, not only because we took the same bus but in school too. We where just friends and at first i could never see myself liking. This friends thing went on for about a year. We later became best friends. At the end of my grade nine, excatly the last day, i came out on the bus with my eyes full of tears.... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Hurt, Pain, MissingI am a ghost, a mere soul drifting in-between the dead and alive. A vague memory existent in the hearts and minds of many; however I never obtained the chance, never opened my eyes wide enough to discern how significant my presence once was... An unusual emptiness divulged as doleful faces began to appear at the door. "Please...can you all, take a seat" a weary voice maffled, as individuals gradually began to amble into the sombre Science room. I stood silently, contemplating the countless mournful faces, with an intense sense of bewail. I focused generally on the heartache which had diffused like cancer among the numerous contented faces I formerly knew. The many "contented" faces that formerly knew me... Patiently, our teacher stood amid the room, waiting until every grave face had settled down into their seats before uttering a 'respectful' oration to introduce the lesson. I don't quite recall... [Read More]
Tags: Dead, Deceased, Pills, Overdose, Suicide Note, Grief, Sad, Pain, Hurt, Death, Suicide5th December 2014 Today my world fell apart. Everything that had happened over the past few months had collapsed in a blink of an eye. My world had crumbled right in front of me. I lost a battle which I never agreed to fight in the first place; I broke down; fell into pieces. My life was a lie, a desperate search for support, all of which I got none. I carried out a life filled with empty promises, broken dreams and hopeless lies. I resorted to wearing a crumbling mask, to protect my fragile core - to hide my insecurities and imperfections. I concealed my pain for so long - wiping my tears quickly enough for them to go unnoticed. The truth was that I was afraid to be a burden for others; I feared to be a person who done nothing but moan and complain - I resorted... [Read More]
Tags: Insecure, Secret, Truth, Hurt, Pain, Suffer, AgonyWhen your parents and everyone tells you to wait until you are married to have sex, you should listen. I wish so desperately that I could take it back. When you have sex at a young age and then it doesn't work out, you feel devastated and crushed. There are no words to describe the pain and hurt I went through. But I am going to tell my story, and I hope maybe that one person who reads this will wait. It was a few months into my sophomore year in high school and I was 16 years old. Everything was going really well and I had a lot of friends. I was in the choir this year and the choir and band was taking a trip to Nevada in December. Everyone was really excited, including me. A few days before our Christmas break, my really good friend at the... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Hurt, Family, Tears, School, Heartbroken, SexOn a Saturday afternoon, i decided to go out with some of my friends. As i walked into Forever 21 i saw a gorgeous, cute boy. I had seen him before at my school. I stared at him, as he turned around i turned and pretended i was looking at the jewelry. That day started an amazing connection towards him. The next day... I was sitting down with my head down, as i see something or someone coming towards me, i felt someone sit down next to me. He said " Hi?!"....as i lifted my face i realized it was him. "Hi.." i said. I blushed as i looked into his eyes. "I saw you yesterday" he said. "Oh really? did you?" I said. he smiled as he sad " Yes, you looked gorgeous!" "No, don't say that" I said "Why not?. I am just saying the truth or what?... [Read More]
Tags: First Love, Kiss, Love, Caring, Hurt, Goodbye, CheatedThis was in 9th grade. I loved a boy named Brad, and I thought he had the same feeling for me too. Until valentines day that year… On that day, instead of love, I felt heartbreak. At lunch break, he came to my friend group with a bunch of roses and a blushing face. At first I thought it was me who he would give it to; but he kneeled on one knee in front of Jade: someone who I considered as a friend. Although Brad's moves where only jokey, I could see through his eyes that he means his love deep in his heart. My best friend dragged me away from the scene where the rest of the group are now clapping and hooting. I didn't dare to look behind me in fear of bursting into tears. That whole afternoon and night, I spent my time thinking about before.... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Hurt, HeartbrokenI was silently sits on my chair, writing on my sheets on paper while the teacher was talking about the Geographic Region of Montreal. I look at my right hand, which was holding my pencil; on my hand, I have wrote "depression hurts but it's the only thing that keeps me alive until you love me <//3" in black, blue and red pen, with some sad faces. It was true, after all… I just see myself like a tall teenage girl with very short red/blond hairs, shaved on one side with a long fringe that hides my left eye and my forehead covered with small scars; a scary white face who always seems unhappy; two brown eyes always full of water, like if I could cry to every single words; a really good pair of boobs, that every perverts likes; a little round belly because of my few small extra... [Read More]
Tags: Girl, Boy, High School, Jealousy, Heartbroken, Depression, Sadness, HurtHi well there are always ups and downs in life. Im just going to write about my biggest down and up in my entire life. If i say that i remember when was the first time we kissed its true. If i say that i remember the first time i said i loved you its a lie . If i say that you gave me light in this dark passage called life its true. I have always had a very easy going life, never really felt alone , have always had friends and family around me. The first time when i actually got to really know girls and want to get closer to them was summer when i started in high school. You know what happends ? Theres actually a girl that likes me just when i know that there are really good to have a girl in your life.... [Read More]
Tags: Alone, Love, Sad, Waiting, Hurt, High School, Breakup, Cheated, Heartbroken, HeartbreakDear friend, Remember that time when we first met? I was nothing in your eyes and you were nothing in mine. We were strangers back then; shy to take the first move, yet somehow we managed to break that wall. I started chatting to you, made a joke and you burst out laughing. We became friends. We built on our relationship by joking around and testing our trust. We moved unto secondary high school and our bond became stronger with every day. You see, I was the one you kept to when the times were hard. I would joke around and you would laugh away. I was the only best friend you had back then and I would be there for you at every demand, every day of my life. When I was off ill, you would cry because no other friend could make your day. It was all quite... [Read More]
Tags: Left, Abandoned, Hurt, Pain, AloneThe bus is were it all started freshman year of high school...actually it was the last two weeks of summer at band camp when I saw her beautiful eyes staring at me from across the room. We talked and laughed while she was throwing green peppers at me and my friend for us to catch. This was the start of it all. But she had a thing going with someone else ,and I has these...feeling for her. But then the bus ride, I was shocked to learn she was on my bus but she didn't know me and her boyfriend was on the bus...well things happend that I don't like to recall and they broke up. She came to me and we talked and that Friday was game day for the schools football team. So me and her sat there being In percussion, we had nothing to do. But it... [Read More]
Tags: Love Story, Hurt, Pain, Depression, Cancer, Death