She has been more than a best friend to me for an eternity. But yet, I still do not know how to articulate and express my true feelings. Her name? Natalie. It is a fitting name for her; innocent and beautiful. We were both 15 years old. Although I was head over heels for you, I could not tell you because of him. You have had a thing with him for a couple months now, and every time you tell me a story about him, I wear a fake smile to avert the fact that I'm madly in love with you. There were many nights I would just say, "ok?" and I would always hope for the response of "ok." . Though this was one word consisting of two letters, the meaning was worth a million. Night by night would go by, not one without us ending up texting or... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Hurt, Hard, Impossible, Sorry, Forgotten, ForbiddenEvery time shes with him, the world doesn't exist anymore. But what she doesn't understand is, why doesn't he realize that. To him, her love and her honest feelings are all melodramatic. She doesn't understand why he doesn't believe her even though he loves her. Why does he have to break her heart every time she smiles. Why can't he believe her for once. She doesn't understand why he takes her for granted. Is she not good enough for him. Is he with her just to have someone. Everything she does is to please him yet it just turns out to be another mistake to him. She just doesn't why she's treated like that. She cries for him but he doesn't see the tears. She begs for forgiveness even though she isn't at fault. She puts up a smile so that he doesn't see all the pain she hides and... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Hurt, PainI'm a 17 year old girl. Yes I know what you're thinking, you don't know what it's like to feel that way about someone, you're too young. I know I'm probably not the most experienced when it comes to this, I know I'm probably not the most mature, but here goes nothing. It started in the last few weeks of term three at school. One of my male friends started to text me and talk to me all the time. We started to become closer and closer as the days went on. I opened up to him, I told him things I didn't usually tell other people willingly. I told him my problems and he tried to help me. Over those couple of weeks, I didn't realise it, but I was beginning to fall for him. Weirdly enough, I've known this boy for two years now, and had a crush... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbreak, Love, Hurt, Lovestory, LoveloveloveSome of you probably have gone through this, But so far ive been feeling alone. Well, There was this boy he was 17 at the time and i was 16. He was in my class and ive had a crush on him, id be so stupid and ask people about him. later on he adds me on Facebook, when i first saw it, the butterflies in my stomach, i felt like i could just float on cloud 9, that's how happy i was. He said "hey" and i replied with a hey back. we started talking more and more each day and say hey in person and have small talks. i was so happy to have him add me. I will admit. i wasn't the most beautiful girl he has seen. he was attractive, i was pretty big and i was just a mess, an insecure mess so i never... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbroken, Crying, Pain, Lies, Hurt, Ugly, LetgoI'm 17 years old now. I'm the type of girl that gets sick of people talking shit about me all the time and I won't put up with it, so I'll do something about it. I'm a depression, smiley, upset, happy person. I get a lot of mood swings. One minute I'm happy and loving life but the next I just hate life and want to kill myself. It's all start way back in grade 7, but I finally broke last year when I was in grade 11. I was going to Vincent Massey and I had people who actually cared and loved me. And I had the greatest, loving, caring and handsome boyfriend I every had. That was a pretty good way to start off a new school year. But something change, I don't know what, I don't know how, but he lost the feelings he had with me.... [Read More]
Tags: Hurt, Betrayal, FakeThis is a true story of mine. It happened few years ago but now i'm fine. I just wanted to share it to you. I had those worse memories that i would never forget in my whole life. It was so hurt for me and left a deep scar inside my heart. Sometimes i wonder if it will be happen again. I was 3 when i started my first school time. I don't know why but i was so scared of being with strangers. I couldn't be friends with anyone because i was too scared of them. When the class about to start, I always cried and asked my mom to stay with me and don't leave me with those kids. I have no friends at all. They hated me for being silly and scared. When I was 4 in the kindergarten I always sat alone. Every kids was playing... [Read More]
Tags: Memories, Bullied, Suicide, Hurt, Pain, Tears, Sadness, True Story, DepressedIn the middle of my freshman year, my mother had a job offering in New York as a secretary. We moved there into this condo complex that was offered to my mother by the company. I started school in this academy where we were supposed to wear uniforms. They were itching and stuff. Summer came. I was 15 but I really wanted to find a job. There were jobs for people my age like mowing lawns or cleaning pools. I cleaned a pool for a 27 year old lady who paid me 300 dollars that day. She said if i came to clean her pool every Friday i would get 350. i accepted. I would go to her house every Friday and she would supervise everything. She was hot but i knew i didn't have a chance. One day she invited me in and offered me a drink. Without know... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbroken, Sad, Love, Cougar, Granted, Break Up, HurtIt all began in October 2012. I had contact with this boy for one week when we decided to meet each other in person. I was so nervous, but it turned out to be just fine. We had seen each other 5 times in total, he always came to me. I never went to his house, because he said he had problems at home and wasn't that close with his family. In December we had two argument in two weeks. That was the end. I didn't hear from his for two days after our last argument, than he broke up with me in a text. I had wanted things to be ended in person, instead of with a text! But he was cold and distant. I didn't see why he wouldn't give me another chance, because he also still loved me. Two days before Christmas, I found out he already... [Read More]
Tags: Heart Broken, Lonely, Fist Love, HurtI remember the day I first met you. I remember the first word you said to me. I remember it all, but I bet you don’t remember. I remember the conversation we once had about doughnuts. I even remember the first time you said I love you. But I also remember how we fell apart. We had been together almost 5 months. It was the first day of school but it was also the day my heart died. I woke up feeling happy making sure to send you a good morning text and to remind you how much I love and care for you. Getting on the bus to find a seat was ok. I got to the school slowly feeling the dread of last year’s demons coming back. Me getting called fat and ugly while wishing and hoping for someone to hold me to help me fight my demons... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Lost, Regret, Painful, Unfaithfulness, Cheating, Unloved, Broken Heart, Death, Hurt, Betrayal, Tears, MemorI walked into my first day of school on a cold, rainy morning. I was wearing a sweater, even though it was early fall, and much too warm for sweaters. I had to hide the bruises. My parents had fought again. I decided to attempt to break it up. It hadn't gone very well. I sneaked my way through the crowded hallways, praying I didn't bump into anyone and hit my bruises. Someone would notice if I winced. I reached my small locker and opened it. I was surprised to find a note in it. It read; "What's it like, to be all alone in the world?" "The hell?" I muttered, crumbling up the paper and tossing it into my bag. I heard snickers from what sounded like a girl behind me. "What do you want?" I groaned, spinning around to face her. Ariella. The only girl who knew about... [Read More]
Tags: Alone, Sad, Depression, Death, Hurt, Broken, Lost, Pain