If you listen to me speak, you'll never hear me say 'my home'. You won't hear me say that. You'll always hear me say my house. Home is where you feel most comfortable. House is where you live. I feel most comfortable in my tae-kwon-do studio, so I call that my home. My house, I get screamed, yelled at. All the blame is pushed upon me. It's always my fault. No one cares when I break down. I've learned to control that. I've learned to fake a smile, pretend I'm happy. Everywhere. then at night I sob about my depression into my stuffed pikachu. Sad? Yeah, it's pitiful, especially for a girl who acts so strong, like nothing fazes me. I feel sad and angry and depressed. But no, I can't tell my parents. They'll shrug it off, or yell at me for being too sensitive. yes, my parents. Mother... [Read More]
Tags: Hurt, Death, Depressed, Pain, Alone, Suffering, SadYou close your eyes and count to 3. When you open them you hope things are ok. But when you open your eyes it’s all still here. I hate you! You try to walk away but it follows. Always negative, always there. I wish I was dead! A new day a new start. Wrong. Still there, still hating. Ill just run away then! Your angry now, all this negativity is rubbing off on you. You lash out and everything you want to say comes out. SHUT UP! You don’t know what you’re on about. You have a lot more than you think. You’re lucky, try living someone else’s life for a day! But it doesn't end. I don’t care! I’ll be better somewhere else anyway. The argument never ends. It continues never getting old. Do the dishes No! Now! I hate you! You can’t help it your angry, too angry.... [Read More]
Tags: FAMILY, DEPRESSION, SORROW, ALONE, SADAll this time, years apart ..I've missed his smile, the way he used to make me laugh just by being there, the way he made me fall in love with him without a single effort this is the only thing he was good at. Circumstances were tough and I could't be with him but also couldn't forget him. I've tried so many times but can't get him out of my mind cause every single detail in my daily life reminds me of him. Sometimes I pretend being assertive and try to move on with my life but in vain. He has never told me he loved me but somehow my love for him grows everyday.. I always wonder what he is doing? who is he with? does he even miss me? these questions are killing me , his absence is killing me but I just can't call him and say... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Lonely, Missing, Hurt, Breakup, Heartbroken, Sadness, AloneLife isn't too easy when the people you’re so used to having around, the people who you think cared about you, the people who you could trust no longer has your back. I know many have felt this way too so this is my story. Regina and Bert are not their real names. Gabe and Cat are real names in this story. Everything started in 8th grade. I had friends who I thought had my back for a long time. Friends that of course I could invite to parties and sleepovers. I had a liking for a new guy named Gabe. He was on TV once and that was to come to where I lived in 7th grade. I didn’t even notice him until 8th grade when certain people went to a DC trip. I was reading Maximum Ride at the time and like many other fan girls, I was... [Read More]
Tags: Alone, Friendship, Best Friend, Betrayal, Heartbroken, Sad, UnlovedPeople tend to say I'm mature for my age, appearance and mentally, it's true, I suppose, but I wish it wasn't, I want to be young and fun again. I don't really have much to be sad about, I have a comfortable house, a good family and a group of fun friends, people also say I always put others first and I'm a really nice person. Shut up. Just shut up and be quiet, what on earth did i do? It wasn't like that before, before i met you Sam. I'm pretty sure you know I'm in love with you, but you still tell me how 'this chicks really hot, i think this girls sexy.' Yeah, i get that they are all beautiful girls, anyone would like them. But they are not there for like i am. I get to act like a two year old around you, only you,... [Read More]
Tags: Unloved, Friendship, Aloneas I looked out the window, it was the sight of my mother leaving to which I never saw again. I was in the 5th grade when this happened, and i still remember it was 2 weeks before our promotion to junior high, growing up i never thought my parents would ever divorce or lose my mother for the rest of my life. "Where are your parents?" i heard my friend asked me all the time. They asked me this at the Ridge Way elementary promotion, where I was the only kid in the cafeteria with neither off his parents. I remember going home and crying my eyes and heart out and being angry at my father for not losing a day of work to come see me in this day and I was furious with my mother for leaving me and my family. my mother was the only women... [Read More]
Tags: Unloved, Heartbroken, Alone, Love, PainI always used to be sad and depressed about things. My parents were not much help, and my brothers and sisters, well, they were all in love. So no point worrying over some loner who destroyed himself for a girl who didn't even look back. I was 13 years old, when I got my first proposal. At first, i didn't accept. But seeing her cry, i didn't think. I just said yes. We stayed together for about a weak or so. I was confused. It wasn't my age for such relationships. I didn't love her anyway. She left me, and i started thinking it was love. I know, its a bit unorthodox, but still, it happened. I tried my luck at a suicide, but no use. So i did several things to hurt myself. Not that i didn't try to bring her back. But it never worked. I'm 17 now.... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Best Friend, Hurt, Cry, Alone, UnlovedThis story isn't solely about love. The following story is not about loss. It's not a tragedy or a romance. Rather, it's all of the above. I had done something terrible one day that had forced me to move out of my home. I moved in with my grandparents who had agreed to take me in. I didn't know the neighborhood, the school district, or anyone within twenty miles of me. I had never felt more alone in my life. I started going to Grissom Middle School that August. My reputation as a fighter and a hothead had followed me up from my old school. My peers tantalized and antagonized me to the point where I would've given my legs to have a fully loaded gun. One day, while I was home, I decided to go for a walk. All of the hostility I faced at school didn't exist in... [Read More]
Tags: Alone, Death, Friendship, Heartbroken, Memories, MissingIt was April, and I was talking to one of my brothers friends who I had a crush on. A few days after talking, we started going out. We were both so happy. Nothing could get in the way of our love... ...So I thought... We were dating for a year, and of course, all good things come to an end... It has been 6 months since we have been "in love"... I was talking to his friend, who was trying to help me out so I wasn't so upset about him leaving me. A few nights after talking to her, I finally found out that she was dating him. They both knew I still loved him... This tore my heart into pieces. Their relationship lasted a week or so. I forgave Michael, because he now knows how I felt when he left me and then dated another girl. But... [Read More]
Tags: AloneI keep telling myself that it all happened for a reason. I'm the person that I am today because of them. If that all hadn't happened, I wouldn't have the outlook on the world that I do. I keep saying it happened for the better as painful as it all is but, I need to face it... This was never what I wanted. This was never what I asked for. They were the people that were keeping me alive each day. I gave up so much for them and we made some of the best memories together. They introduced me to new things and made me so much more confident. I really couldn't thank them enough for that. I didn't know that it was only going to last for that short period of time though. I honestly thought that it was all going to be my forever. But they all... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Heartbroken, Hurt, Tears, Cruel, Alone