I don't know why I'm doing this. I'm so pitiful and no one cares. I guess I just need to vent. yes, this is a true story. I guess it all starts with no one really caring about me. I was the child who was ignored. The the child who was born for failure. Whatever. I'm over that, but what really pisses me off is that no one really started even looking at me until I got "pretty". I started wearing makeup. people actually talked to me. but they didn't care. I knew they didn't. I just wanted someone to talk to me for once. I went years without anybody even glancing at me and it felt good that people wanted to talk to me.. I started dating this boy who really cared about me.. well I don't know.. maybe he was just going through the motions like everyone else.... [Read More]
Tags: Hate, Life, Death, Suicide, Heart Break, Broken Heart, CuttingI stared at the letter left in my locker after school. I read it over once, twice. I felt a pain in my chest as the words stabbed through my sensitive heart. My girlfriend of two years broke up with me in a note... I felt tears roll down my pale cheeks, clouding my vision and blurring the words on the paper. My hands trembled as I held the paper close to my heart, refusing to let it go. My walk to home was very lonely. Normally, my girlfriend and I would walk home together, hand in hand, laughing at random remarks in our conversation. The memories made my heart ache more and I buried my hands deeper into the pockets of my “Escape the Fate” hoodie, clutching the note that broke my heart. Once I got home, I dragged myself to my room, locking myself inside. Nobody was home... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, Death, Depression, Cutting, Heartbreak, Unloved, SadWe started talking when he moved to our school. He was so sweet to her, they texted for hours and hours, everything was going good. She had told her friends about their love for each other, about how great everything was going. One day he came up to her. "Okay, I really like this girl, and I can't stop thinking about her," the girls heart started to pound and her palms started to sweat. All she could think was, 'this is me.' "Go on," she said, her cheeks hot. "And well, I want to be her boyfriend," he smiled. "And?" "She's so beautiful. I really like her.." "Who is it?!" "Renee, could you give me her number?" "Oh. Um, sure. I'll text it to you later." The girl ran to the bathroom and started to cry. Renee, her best friend had stolen him away. How could this happen. She stared... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, Broken, Betrayal, Depression, Heartbroken, Hurt, Lost, Lonely, Love, Pain, Sadness, Secret, DeathOnce upon a time, there was a girl. She was the worlds biggest hopeless romantic, and always dreamed of finding her soul mate. She had severe, horrible abandonment issues, because her father had abandoned her. Her father was leaving one day and looked her straight in the eye and told her that she was unlovable.That no one would ever, ever love her. She had fallen in love before, but there was one special boy. She risked EVERYTHING for him. She wasn't aloud to date him. Her stepfather beat her when he found out she loved him, because she was 14 and he was 17. But she still loved him enough to keep in contact, even though she feared what her step dad would do. He swore multiple times that he wouldn't leave, that he understood her constant fear of abandonment. He told her he loved her, he promised he wouldn't... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, Abandonment, Love, Sadness, Cutting, Self, Mutilation, LossI don't know how exactly to start out the story so i guess ill start of with the first sad thing? I was born into this world with a heart condition called I.H.S.S. I can't play any sports, i can't get too mad. My heart rate can't too high or i could die. I can't do many things actually. I can't work out too much and i can't eat many sweets. I found this out when i was 8. I ran to my mom saying i wanted to play a sport. I don't remember what it was, but I've always wanted to play softball. She told me i couldn't. I asked why, and, well, there's the answer. Along with a heart condition, I was born with a gene to be very overweight. I was adopted, and i didn't know that 'til i was about 11. And you know, when your... [Read More]
Tags: Abuse, Death, Breakups, SuicideRosalina was 13 years old when her father was shot in a drive by. She ran to my house at midnight when her mother passed out from being drunk. I still don't know how she ran a mile and a half blinded by tears. She pretty much threw herself at my door. When I opened my door she landed in my arms still sobbing heavily against my chest. I picked up the light little girl and cradled her in my arms and sat down on my couch. She spent a good half hour before she told me what happened. The poor girl's voice was shaky and very quiet that If you took a breath you could have missed something. "Daddy and I went to the bronx and suddenly a guy in a 09 mercedes benz shot my dad and left. I got out of the car and ran home and... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, Death, Depression, SadnessSleepless Nights 12:45 in the morning, I cant take anymore, but I have to, I have to see you. My shift is coming close to its end, "Penelope" called the nurse. There you were escaping the shadows of darkness that room behold of you,. The light touch her exquisite features, long dark hair past her shoulders and fragrance of ocean breeze, lips as red and flawless as a bloom rose, eyes so captivating that shocks all my senses, you are flawless in every way imaginable, you are my burning desire, my endless love, and yet the most beautiful and good hearted suffers a mental disorder. I've only started to work in this psychiatric ward for 2 months and these months will rain forever more happiness then, than in my lifetime. Penelope was suffering from Schizophrenia and I was just a staff there. It was December 20 the day I met... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Suicide, Tragic Romance, Death, Romance, Tragic"I don't know" is my favorite phrase these days - when i say "these days" i mean since June 14th 2010, that's 11 months. I'm really confused about my feelings. First of all, this might not be the saddest story and i might seem ungrateful for my life at the moment but i really cant cope with this. I'm feeling so depressed and just literally want to die right now. I told one of my friends about this (the only person i could really trust with this) and they told me to go see a psychologist.. but i don't want to. I know - stubborn. I think its better if i get the pain over with and kill myself. Right now I'm at the point where every time i go in the kitchen or get hold off a knife, i press it against my face and it relieves me for... [Read More]
Tags: Lonely, Confused, Tragedy, Help, Psychologist, Psycho, SuicideSo a boy was in love with this girl for years, but they didn't go out. He decided to finally tell her how he felt, she said she liked him too but she only said that cause she didn't want to be mean. And he knew he was no doubt in love with her, but she just couldn't understand it. NOTHING else in the world ever made him as happy as she did. One day, the boy asked the girl out, she said she would, but she's going through a lot at the time and she's not ready for a relationship which was only an excuse. The boy understood and was okay with waiting for her cause he knew she was worth the wait. Just a few days after this, she got together with another guy. The other boy was furious, and asked her why she did that, she wouldn't... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Death, Wait, Boy, Girl, Relationship, Hospital, SuicideI was young, believing in possibilities that were always impossible from the start, that's what happens when you're young; you dream. I always was in love with dragons, everything had to be dragons. From clothes to pictures, to notebooks and books and bags. I was drawing pictures of dragons, writing stories about dragons, fascinated with the thought of seeing movies with them in it. But I was 10, what'd you expect? I started having these dreams in my head whenever I was awake. I had them everyday, it wasn't on purpose to pass time, it just happened. Those dreams became brutal when I was 12, my friends were in those dreams, and the people I hated died. I had no control over what happened in the dreams, and only one person knew what was going on at the time, but the help wasn't enough. At 13, the thoughts and dreams,... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Love, Suicide, Smile