I don’t know if you would call it love. Or a relationship. I don’t know. But all I know is that this boy made me feel safe, wanted and loved. But he lied. I was 12 year old girl, long ish brown hair, depressed, suicidal, self harmer. I was in 6 grade. I wasn’t very popular. I was popular to the bullies cause they like picking on me. They knew my father left me when I was a baby, they had two parents so they laughed at me for that and my weight. One day tho, It was Nov 30, 2013 or 14. My best friend at the time Courtney stayed with me on the weekends. We went on Omegle like we do every time she comes down. She would always find someone, date for a week then find someone else but me... I didn’t. I was the ugly friend... [Read More]
Tags: Help, Lost Love, Long Distance, San Francisco, Love, DepressedSince the last story I wrote I have went back into a state of depression. I have been here once before but this time is different. Instead of feeling sadness all the time I feel anger. I prefer to be alone but when i'm not I get mad and snap easily. I know what started it back up but I don't understand why I am so angry. Let me tell you everything that has happened recently. My step dad was caught cheating on my mom.. again. They finally split up and life was getting good. Then she started sneaking around with him and eventually told me she wanted to get back with him. I just turned 18 and this set me off. I left walking so I could calm down and not snap on her. She followed me in the truck and cussed me out telling me to get in.... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, HelpMy name is Jason. The story I want to tell is my own and it is as truthful as I can make it. I still don't completely understand it and I just need to get it out, all of it, for the first time. I was born May 22, 2001. My mother was a drug addict and was 16. I can't blame her for what happened, for leaving me. She left me when I was 1 and I never saw her again. I never met my father and I don't think I will. I went to foster home to foster home. When I turned 5 a family wanted to adopt me, they knew my mother and actually used to take care of me in day care. I was living with them and I was about to be adopted but My adopted father was going blind and there was so many... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, Pain, Hope, Forgotten, Sad, HelpHaving everything yet feeling empty is quite a weird feeling. Smiling to others when you feel like you want to cry and just die just eats you up. Saying your 'fine' when really you're not is more than just a lie, it's a weapon that breaks you every time. Putting on a mask of a happy face on everyday and acting like a happy person is very tiring. Because you know that if you show your true face, you will be hated, you will be beaten up, and you'll be scolded and lectured. People will tell you "You have no right to be sad!", "You have no reason to be tired when you didn't even do a single thing!" The people around me just don't realize just how hard I work to play the role as the happy-go-lucky child. They never realized how much I've been hurt because of this... [Read More]
Tags: Freedom, Sad, Sadness, Family, Hurt, Pain, Mask, Happiness, Loneliness, Darkness, Salvation, Chain, Bound, HelpI have a story. But I don't want to write it as it opens a closed chapter of my life. it lasted for a very long time and is still on going. Therefore i have decided to write a true story about many people that has been bullied. I want people to understand what we/you have been through. A shrink does not know how we feel. A mental hospital does not know how we feel. Medication does not know how we feel. they say "It takes one to know one" that is what I believe is the mental hospital, the skrink, the medication we stuff down every day. I want the world to know how it is. I want them to actually cry over something they don't understand. I want them to cry over someone they don't know. I want them to cry because we are strong. Because we lived... [Read More]
Tags: Struggle, Sadness, Hope, Bullied, Teen, Hopeless, Help, Lost, Love, Lonelyrecovered ? i ask my self i have recovered from the rejection of a girl that i loved for 6 years now. To be honest i do not know, sometimes i feel like i have, that i don't care about her anymore even though she is my best friend, sometimes i think to my self that its not going to hurt me anymore then i see her with another person. But then there are times where i break down, where i need her so much in my life i actually get scared of doing something bad like killing my self. i sit down and i cry. yes i know i shouldn't be saying it out loud because men don't cry, but for her i do, i sit down and just cry, time like that i ask my self have i really gotten over her. asking myself this question over and... [Read More]
Tags: Done, Help, Save, FedupHi guys, I am new in this Forum. First of all I would like to add that I am gay (if you are against, stop reading now, please) I don't know what to do anymore I need help. I tried so hard to move on to start feeling better with myself that looks it will be impossible. I am 21 I am Mexican ( born and raised) I chose to belong to this forum, due to the fact that I think people I know could hardly find me or something. Since I was in kinder garden I knew I was gay, since I was 6 years old I had a lot of self-esteem problem because and don't really know why, I think maybe because my dad always compared me with other people and the people my family and I use to get along and hang out with ( the family... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Help, LonelyI am Sammie, I have been tall all my life, I am friends with all guys, I am biracial, and I am very easy to hurt. I don't know what to do with life, it all seems so hard. Well let me take you back to 2012, when I first meant Chris. Chris is a cutie, tall, blonde hair and blue eyes. He was my best-friend, but things started to get weird... He knew I loved him, I made it obvious. But at the same time, I couldn't stop. I wanted to but I couldn't. Feelings wouldn't leave, so I gave in.. And that's how it ended. We stopped talking, I stopped thinking about him and it finally vanished. I started talking to Ben, who is my best friend but I believe I have no feelings, its complicated. Ben is also hansom, tall, brown hair brown eyes. The sight of... [Read More]
Tags: Help, SadnessShe's an innocent little girl named Natasha who grew up with no one and nothing. Her mother didn't have time for her or her sisters. Her mother had time for drugs and sex. She was 4 and she was confused. She asked God everyday why her mommy didn't love her. Natasha asks her mommy why she doesn't love her and her mother says "Because you're worthless! You're ugly and disgusting and you're not my kid!" Natasha just cries, she doesn't understand why her mother says the things that she says. She's cold, hungry and scared. Her mother never feeds her or her sisters. Instead her mother sits there and eats in front of them, making her and her sisters smell the food but if they try to eat it, they know they'll get beat,so they go to bed starving. Natasha stinks and is extremely dirty. Her mom didn't pay any... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Sadness, Broken, Sad Story, Pain, Painful, Hurt, Help, Hopeless, Alone, Crying, Confused, Cutting, Giving UpIts funny how on TV the image of a relationship is simple. You meet a guy/girl in freshman, fall deeply in love. The relationship carries on all through high school and college. Having special moments when you say "I love you for the first time." Going to prom together etc. And then getting married and living happy ever after. That's not my case at all. I'll start by saying I was surrounded by a family filled with failed marriages, relationships. So at a young age I knew not to believe all the lovey dovey stuff I saw on TV. I went through my first year of High School watching girls desperately go after the senior boys, football players, anything to get there status in the role of High School a little bit higher. Me on the other hand was avoiding all the arrows cupid had thrown at me. Until I... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Heartbroken, Confused, Help, True Story, Betrayal