EXPENDABLE, of little value or significance compared to the overall purpose. Abandoned. Have you ever felt like this in your life? You were an unnecessary add on. You will not be missed. This is the state in which I currently reside. I am expendable, to my friends and even to myself. I am of little importance. My feelings not considered. My heart now aching. Depressed, in a state of general unhappiness. Despondent. This is where I live and have lived for a long time now. Therapy, medication, more therapy. Sure, it helps sometimes. The panic attacks may have stopped. The anxiety seems under control, but it’s still there. It is always there. Haunting me, like a ghost. Everyday I look in the mirror. Somedays I tell myself that I am beautiful and I am worthy of a great life and love. Other days however, I see myself as a person... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Anxiety, Lonely, SadMy story is quite long and in depth. Wouldn’t want to make anyone bored but this is an 100% true story of what happened to me. It started as a little toddler: 3 years of age. I remember my first dream. It was a nightmare and scared the crap out of me! I was afraid of everything from that moment on. Until… I had another dream. This one I met a girl. This was my first lucid dream, with many more to come. (In case you don’t know what that is, it is a dream in which you have full control and can realise you are dreaming). I was hiding from everything because I was scared, but then she saw me she introduced herself and told me that it was just a dream. I looked up and she took my hand and showed me how to lucid dream. She weirdly... [Read More]
Tags: Lonely, Dreams, Depression, Love Hurts, Sacrifice, Suicide, Broken Heart, Best Friend, BulliedThe story starts back in 2015 when I was going to highschool. There I wasn't the most popular kid or anything like that, but I did started to get more confidence when I started to train in a gym. And so it begins... During school day I saw the most beautiful girl and experienced the love on first site. She also noticed me. We started to chat for 2 weeks and we clicked and I thought to my self I am the luckiest guy ever. But then she told me, she only finded me sexually interested and that she noticed I had grown fellings for her, which she disliked, so she ended it over the phone. Months had passed before she contacted me again saying that her aunt forced her to end the relationship, because she was in trouble with the police. I belived her and gave her a second... [Read More]
Tags: True Story, Depression, Suicidal, Heartbroken, LonelyOn the new Petition by Henry Walsh. I was one of the first 40 signatures, I advertised this petition on all social media I could from Facebook to Gab and YouTube to Twitter. Etc. I was surprised that while of course fans are divided on the Disney take of star wars, never did I think I would have my life threatened over the franchise. Henry Walsh also has been threatened, that people would hack his email, that they would attack him. I have been told I would suffer if I kept going through with this petition and kept posting it. In 1977 George Lucas strived to make a movie that nobody wanted to be a part of, it was difficult and he was told to change it and put all his money and time into it. He created history and made a huge change to cinema everywhere and the future... [Read More]
Tags: Sadness, Struggle, Story, Sad, Sad Story, Hate, Dreams, Dream, Loveback then to 2014 ,i met a girl,can called a unique girl,she are a loving yet doesnt care anything type of girl,one day she care and one day she just dont,but by time passed by i still love her as much as the day she said yes on my ask to be a couple, we had everything together,laugh tears ,cuddling on holiday, dinner after it and back home to get a great sleep,she never stay over night but she always share her calm sleep face with me, she always make me laugh,she had a great smile..even thou she never care that much to me,but love her with all my life Its been 3 yers ,but im wondering ,she never introduce me to her family, i keep it calm until she started to act weird, she startt to not cantact me,no phone and no text, when i text first its take... [Read More]
Tags: Lonely, LostSo, it's currently 1.13PM and I'm on my bed, typing this story because I have no one to talk to. I'm Gwen, people call me that and I think that's a beautiful name. I have issues with my family for I know that I am a failure in front of their eyes. Earlier I had a misunderstanding with my dad, just because he saw me and judged that I'm not being productive at the moment but he's wrong, I'm always productive but they just wont see it. My mom, my mom who always scold me for being a stupid daughter which is (I think) true. I'm stupid for being a daughter who actually have a lot of things going on inside her head. I haven't told them I'm bisexual because I wouldn't know if they would appreciate my own sexuality. I'm just seriously too depressed, I have no one to... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Fake, Hurt, Family, Lonely, LonelinessIt’s time again to ponder about what zyan is feeling again. To be honest I’m holding back the tears that express how I’m feeling right now. I’m sad, depressed, lost, confused, and scared. This talk of cece and I breaking up and her moving on right away to some other person hurts. That’s how you know that your relationship is poor and going down hill. I’m hurting everyday because of this feeling. I don’t want this feeling. It hurts so much and I hold onto it like I’m holding a knife and pressing up against my skin waiting for the time until I crack down and decide to finally cut myself and bleed out. I want love and compassion from my partner and when it feels like you're the only one contributing to the relationship it hurts. You’re confused whether she’s interested in you still or not. There are many... [Read More]
Tags: Alone, Sad, Suicide, Suffering, Story, Secret, Hurt, Heartbroken, HopelessI have a story. But I don't want to write it as it opens a closed chapter of my life. it lasted for a very long time and is still on going. Therefore i have decided to write a true story about many people that has been bullied. I want people to understand what we/you have been through. A shrink does not know how we feel. A mental hospital does not know how we feel. Medication does not know how we feel. they say "It takes one to know one" that is what I believe is the mental hospital, the skrink, the medication we stuff down every day. I want the world to know how it is. I want them to actually cry over something they don't understand. I want them to cry over someone they don't know. I want them to cry because we are strong. Because we lived... [Read More]
Tags: Struggle, Sadness, Hope, Bullied, Teen, Hopeless, Help, Lost, Love, LonelyYes,I am a bitch. I know I hurt someone for being so mean. I know I am acting as if I am a perfect person. I always notice someone’s flaws. I am inconsiderate for telling his/her mistakes and give my opinion about it. I am insensitive because even though I am aware that I might hurt somebody, I still express what’s on my mind. I am a beast, a monster that’s ready to kill someone anytime. You might even think that I am a heartless person. I am a self centered girl who only thinks how to be beautiful always. But did you even try to be closer to me? Did you ever try to smile at me? Did you ever try to think that I can be a good friend too? Of course you didn't. You don’t like me on the first place. You don’t like how I carry... [Read More]
Tags: Hurt, Sad, Lonely, Alone, Judged, PainSome people are born lucky to enjoy their love life but some people are not. In my teen age, I was in love with my neighbor who was happened to be my schoolmate also. People say falling in love is itself a matter of good luck. But it was not true in my case. Most of my time, I used to pass in her sweet company .we were so involved that years passed by very swiftly .once we overheard our moms talking about our marriage. So we were happy that we would be going to pass our rest of life together. Time drifted on we became more familiar with each other .I learnt that she had a lot of habits and traits like me. I loved everything about her like her habits, her incredible faith in god. When she was with me, life was beautiful and useful. We were so... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Life, Lonely, Unloved