5th December 2014 Today my world fell apart. Everything that had happened over the past few months had collapsed in a blink of an eye. My world had crumbled right in front of me. I lost a battle which I never agreed to fight in the first place; I broke down; fell into pieces. My life was a lie, a desperate search for support, all of which I got none. I carried out a life filled with empty promises, broken dreams and hopeless lies. I resorted to wearing a crumbling mask, to protect my fragile core - to hide my insecurities and imperfections. I concealed my pain for so long - wiping my tears quickly enough for them to go unnoticed. The truth was that I was afraid to be a burden for others; I feared to be a person who done nothing but moan and complain - I resorted... [Read More]
Tags: Insecure, Secret, Truth, Hurt, Pain, Suffer, AgonyHere is a true story about a heartbreak that I'm still getting over. A little over a year ago, about September of 2011, I met a boy named Tony. He was extremely handsome, funny, and popular. I liked him, but he could be arrogant sometimes. A couple months later we became friends (not super close, though) and starting talking/texting. In the hallways, he would say ''hi'' to me, we'd sit at the same lunch table, and we joked with each other occasionally. In about May of 2012, Tony asked me to video chat with him. With me liking him, I obviously agreed. We flirted a lot, and learned more about each other; He even called me beautiful! Once we were done video chatting, I felt amazing. I couldn't believe he had called me beautiful. But once we went back to school, things weren't so amazing. He was avoiding me at... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbroken, Heartbreak, Pain, Agony, Suffering, Unloved, AloneHi, I'm Catherine and my story is about my ex and friend. So two years ago, I was new at a public middle school and I was going into 7th grade. This was the happiest year of my life so far even though I'm currently a freshman in high school right now. But that's not what this is about. So I met my first love and his name was Simon. I had the happiest times with him and he smashed my heart into millions of pieces when he dumped me. It took me a while but I got over him even though he is currently my best friend. A few months after my breakup with him, I met his friend, John, who was very sweet but a bit of a loose cannon and socially awkward to a lot of people. I kind of thought I liked John since he wasn't... [Read More]
Tags: Suicide, True Story, Friend, Agony, Missing, Memories, Sad, DeathEarly in 2011, I felt as if my life was in a rut. I woke up, showered, went to school, came home, homework, and went to sleep. I never did anything different. Until Samantha came into my life. She was everything I wanted in a girl. She was absolutely perfect. Whenever I saw her, my entire day lit up as she ran into my arms. She was my true first love, first kiss, my everything. It was amazing being with her. I cared for her with everything I had. I was in love with her. But then, when school was ending, and summer was young, I couldn't go to school and see her. She told me, she was getting lonely. I sent her a message. A very, very, sappy lovey-dovey message that I never really wanted to send. I was just caring about her so she wouldn't feel bad anymore.... [Read More]
Tags: Depressed, Lonely, Suicidal, Lost, Upset, Pain, Agony, Regret, Care, Unloved, Forgotten