So, it's currently 1.13PM and I'm on my bed, typing this story because I have no one to talk to. I'm Gwen, people call me that and I think that's a beautiful name. I have issues with my family for I know that I am a failure in front of their eyes. Earlier I had a misunderstanding with my dad, just because he saw me and judged that I'm not being productive at the moment but he's wrong, I'm always productive but they just wont see it. My mom, my mom who always scold me for being a stupid daughter which is (I think) true. I'm stupid for being a daughter who actually have a lot of things going on inside her head. I haven't told them I'm bisexual because I wouldn't know if they would appreciate my own sexuality. I'm just seriously too depressed, I have no one to... [Read More]
Tags: Depression, Fake, Hurt, Family, Lonely, LonelinessIt was about four years ago, I had been very interested in some boy. The years were really rough, since I had just moved schools, and I had lost a couple of my friends. The boy was not someone I was expected to like, since my parents had always said I couldn't love anyone with "obesity". This boy was my miracle, and I had fallen completely for him. I don't know why. He was not like any boy, I had sat next to him in class for this year. I thought my life was great, because even though my family practically hated me, I didn't let that get to me. I think I had fallen for him, more and more, I blushed when I talked to him, though I would hope he wouldn't see me. However at the same time I had good friends. Books always told me, if you... [Read More]
Tags: Fake Friends, Depression, Love, Cutting, FakeDay 1 My mom is getting married to a guy who she has known for two weeks. He has tattoos and piercings... My mom has had bruises everywhere since they have been sleeping together. I hear my mom cry in the bathroom everyday when hes gone. Is it because he's been a dick? My mom is skinnier and more tired looking, has he been starving her? she hasn't been eating as much. I dont know what to do. Day 5 I caught my moms husband trying to sneak into my room last night. He was wearing only boxers. What was he trying to do? He saw me open my eyes and backed away back to his room. I dont like the feeling i have around him.... Week 1 I found my 'stepdad' ouching himself to a picture of me.... I have locked my bedroom door ever since. I cant add... [Read More]
Tags: Death, Suicide, Abuse, Broken, Depression, Fake, FamilyJake. That's his name. Jake. He was my first kiss and I thought he would never hurt me. I'm not going to say our love last forever because I knew that wasn't going to happen. I did think he wasn't going to hurt me. He told me and I quote "I'll always be right here for you." A few weeks later, he broke up with me in a note. He left it on my door like a pathetic person. I was crushed. I acted so strong but when I got home I cried myself to bed. After that, he dated a few other girls and I dated some other guys but I was never really over him. He was my first love after all. Come to now. He's been in and out of my life. He comes around ever time he wants sex and I sadly give it to him... [Read More]
Tags: Lonely, Lies, Pain, First Love, Fake, Heartbroken, AbandonedI'm 17 years old now. I'm the type of girl that gets sick of people talking shit about me all the time and I won't put up with it, so I'll do something about it. I'm a depression, smiley, upset, happy person. I get a lot of mood swings. One minute I'm happy and loving life but the next I just hate life and want to kill myself. It's all start way back in grade 7, but I finally broke last year when I was in grade 11. I was going to Vincent Massey and I had people who actually cared and loved me. And I had the greatest, loving, caring and handsome boyfriend I every had. That was a pretty good way to start off a new school year. But something change, I don't know what, I don't know how, but he lost the feelings he had with me.... [Read More]
Tags: Hurt, Betrayal, Fake6 years ago I was abused. My parents got divorced cause my dad threw my mom across the hall and she hit a wooden toy box. My sister got choked against a wall. I tried to stop him and he pushed me down.My sister's actually my cousin but her parents are dead and in a looney bin. I am his only daughter. He's changed. He's remarried. He promised me if he ever got married I would be the first to know. I didn't know till I got a text. "She said yes!" My mom's boyfriend hits my sister and the government got into it. Oh so much help. Now today I come home everyday to verbal abuse called a bitch or fat ass. Then my mom wonders why I don't talk to her. Today, Halloween, I went to school with make up on. I cried on the bus. The gym.... [Read More]
Tags: Abuse, Failure, Fake, Tears, Sucide, Sad, Girl, DepressionWe never really thought much of each other before this but everything changed after the day I ended up drinking with him. I was lying in his arms with his friends at his house. His parents weren't going to be home for the next 3 days, so we had a free place to stay. He had come to me, I did flirt with him a bit right before he came and sat next to me. He put one arm around my waist and the other on my thigh. I put down the bottle of vodka that was in my hands and began making out with him. "let's go to my room" he whispered in my ear. "Alright" I smiled promiscuously, as I nervously myself up the stairs. His fingers were placed between mine. He gracefully placed me onto his bed.You could see the excitement on his face as he locked... [Read More]
Tags: Love, Pretend, Friends, Caring, Fake, Hook Up