I was abused physically and sexually when I was younger. I felt no love from either of my parents due to this and I decided to isolate myself. I had no true friends at school I would feel comfortable talking to about these things, so I took my sadness to the online community. I stumbled and fell trying to find the right site to express myself, and ended up on xat. It was a random room, filled with words and names flying by. A girl with the screen name Puppy messaged me, and she asked what my name was. I am a guy, and I have always identified as one. In that moment, I decided to reply that my name was Kate. Girls were more popular, more likable, able to make friends. That's how I always saw it, anyways. Puppy and I became close quickly, and she introduced me to... [Read More]
Tags: Long Distance, Abandoned, Lies, Abuse, Online, Love Story, LoveI was young, stubborn, innocent and venerable. It still hurts to see you. I wasted 2 years of my life on you. A player. Someone who was cheating on me behind my back. Not once. Not twice. But 4 times. That why I'm here to say: Someday you'll regret this. You'll regret walking away. And when you do don't come running back to me because I will get over you too. At the same time someday you'll be so very grateful you left because you won't be stuck with me forever. You'll instead get a girl who might be prettier, who doesn't have as many problems and issues as I do. She will give you all you ever want. Just like I tried to do. But, I hope you never get tired or bored of her and leave her like You did to me. Why? Because that hurts it hurts... [Read More]
Tags: Hurt, Love, Player, Cheater, LiesWARNING: not really that sad but just felt like sharing it... It was the first day of freshmen year of high school, I was looking for some hot new kid cause I was bored of all the annoying and old people in my grade. First period: no one Second Period: no one Third period: There he walks in, " he took my breathe away" I turned to by bestie and said "he's so hot, he's mine." She said " ew wtf!." There was something about him I didn't like, I loved!! Was it his eyes, his hair, his voice, i don't know! My older sisters class was next to mine so, when the bell rang I ran to her and showed her his new boy. She also said "ew." I didn't care. When I went home my sister said that the new boy was in her study hall and she... [Read More]
Tags: Lies, HurtIt’s time again to ponder about what zyan is feeling again. To be honest I’m holding back the tears that express how I’m feeling right now. I’m sad, depressed, lost, confused, and scared. This talk of cece and I breaking up and her moving on right away to some other person hurts. That’s how you know that your relationship is poor and going down hill. I’m hurting everyday because of this feeling. I don’t want this feeling. It hurts so much and I hold onto it like I’m holding a knife and pressing up against my skin waiting for the time until I crack down and decide to finally cut myself and bleed out. I want love and compassion from my partner and when it feels like you're the only one contributing to the relationship it hurts. You’re confused whether she’s interested in you still or not. There are many... [Read More]
Tags: Alone, Sad, Suicide, Suffering, Story, Secret, Hurt, Heartbroken, HopelessThere I was, minding my own business. All I want to do back then was to pursue my dream, and that means I had to study harder than ever, I had to have sleepless nights, I had to pass the nerve-wracking examinations and I had to endure those God-only-knows-the-answer recitations. I had to be among the fittest to survive. My daily routine was home-school-home. Until you came. I thought you were the typical guy with mischievous smile who would never want a nerd-looking girl like me and also, I don’t belong to the type of girls who would be drooling for a guy like you. I did not expect that I would fall for you. I didn’t even realize that I was falling for you. Maybe I fell for you for making me feel special, or maybe because, subconsciously, I was longing to be in a relationship, or maybe because... [Read More]
Tags: Love Hurts, Lies, Deceit, Hurt"I'll like to tell you a story… about a boy and a girl:" "The girl, she had a crush and she didn't leave so easily. To her, he was the only one who owned her heart. But to him… she was just another girl. One day, the girl asked his feelings towards her. He said said he did like her, but she didn't know whether it was love or friendship. She continued to adore him, she would sing a song that described everything or wrote one. She would be happy to say something to him, but she felt like a pest to him. Sometimes, she wished he'll ask a question to her before she would. Her nickname was something she hated being, but coming from him, she felt special. Later, her broken heart was getting ripped more and more. He ripped and stole pieces without realizing it. She wanted to... [Read More]
Tags: Sad, Death, Lies, Questions, Why?Jake. That's his name. Jake. He was my first kiss and I thought he would never hurt me. I'm not going to say our love last forever because I knew that wasn't going to happen. I did think he wasn't going to hurt me. He told me and I quote "I'll always be right here for you." A few weeks later, he broke up with me in a note. He left it on my door like a pathetic person. I was crushed. I acted so strong but when I got home I cried myself to bed. After that, he dated a few other girls and I dated some other guys but I was never really over him. He was my first love after all. Come to now. He's been in and out of my life. He comes around ever time he wants sex and I sadly give it to him... [Read More]
Tags: Lonely, Lies, Pain, First Love, Fake, Heartbroken, AbandonedHer side of the story. I looked at his leaving back. The one I used to lay on when I'm asleep. I looked at his hair. The same i use to pull on when we were making love. The same body. Except that he no longer belonged to me anymore. How I wished he would turn to look back at me. The "me" that he once said he would never leave, coz it would hurt himself. But now he's got someone else to love. I'm nothing to him. Anymore. "You promised" I muttered to my self while I cried. "You promised" "SIMON!" I shouted across the heavy rain that's now pouring down. "You promised!" He stopped in the middle of the road "You said you would never leave me!! In the world alone. Not unless I told you to. But I want you now. I need you." I was nothing... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbroken, Lonely, Cry, Lies, LoveSome of you probably have gone through this, But so far ive been feeling alone. Well, There was this boy he was 17 at the time and i was 16. He was in my class and ive had a crush on him, id be so stupid and ask people about him. later on he adds me on Facebook, when i first saw it, the butterflies in my stomach, i felt like i could just float on cloud 9, that's how happy i was. He said "hey" and i replied with a hey back. we started talking more and more each day and say hey in person and have small talks. i was so happy to have him add me. I will admit. i wasn't the most beautiful girl he has seen. he was attractive, i was pretty big and i was just a mess, an insecure mess so i never... [Read More]
Tags: Heartbroken, Crying, Pain, Lies, Hurt, Ugly, LetgoHi, my name is Cecilia, and like any average 17 year old girl, I longed for a prince charming to come and sweep me up my feet and have a happy ending. Ever since I was little, fairytale stories has always been a big part of my life; it gave me hope that one day, I'll be like one of those princesses, but as I grew older, I realized that fairy tales are never going to happen to me because I'm 16 and I still haven't seen my prince charming yet (yes, this is very silly of me, I know). Then, it all began during the summer, because I am anti-social out in the real world, I couldn't possibly find my prince charming out there. I was too afraid to show my true self to society, afraid that people will make fun of me, so I decided to forget about... [Read More]
Tags: Broken Heart, Broken Promises, Lies, Betrayal, Breakup, Sad, Hurt, Heartbroken, Sadness